awake

being awake late at night makes you think...this is the main reason i want to go to sleep...
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i just wanna make you happy. thats all i care about..your happiness. so when im holding you and theres nothing i can say or do to make the pain go away..i feel horrible. you know i care about you a lot...hell..i love you. so let me be there for you as much as i can. i promise well both feel better.
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as of right now we have approx. 16 days left together. it hurts. i dont wanna say goodbye but we both know that this is for the best. it eliminates all tempation, all holding back. we can just experience college to the fullest. well reunite one day baby..but only time will tell the result of that reunion.
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cotillion practice tomorrow guys..im a little worried about one couple ash and lew. im pretty confident in people tho. i mean if anyone cant do it..i will try to find a replacement for you...if thats what is necessary. all i ask is that you come to practice to learn new material and practice with your partner. but hey if you cant come..ONE) tell me!! TWO) work out something with me and/or your partner so that you can practice...i will be more than happy to put all the songs on a cd for you.

i have so much to do still...ugghh..if you can help...please please please let me know!!!
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i cant wait for college...who knows whats gunna happen!